another day, another pound!

Woke up and weighed myself, drum roll please......... 249.5. Can you believe it? I know it's just the beginning, but 6 lbs in 3 days, ha and I'm really dieting. I hope this feeling doesn't wear-off. I must admitt that I was feeling a bit down, and wanting candy, instead i photographed my favorites. And if you are thinking I'm nut, you're right!

So good, so far

I know, I know, it's only day 3, but in my defense I usually suck at "life changes", I start to feel bad for myself and all depressed. Not so much this time. I guess cause the I have been doing my own thing and it's not so bad. If I was a diabetic, I would have no choice.

I got a message from the doctor and his exact words were "if you haven't already, it's extremely important that you start the GL diet". Well, I guess the results weren't that great. But at least he didn't say - Yvette, you're dieing, rush to a hospital"

I weighed myself this moring and the scale said 250.5 - that's 4.5lbs in 2 days... Can I just say I can not believe I let myself get over 225. What was I thinking? Someone should have slapped me. Everyone keeps telling me not to worry how long it will take to get the weight off, but that's because they are not me. They are not the ones with over 125lbs to lose. So ridiculous. ok enough about that, lets move one and start day .

Day 1

OK, NOT SO BAD. Bit weird to not eat junk all day. I think my body was in detox mood. I felt a bit sluggish all day and had the worst headache all night long. Breakfast, All Bran and Skim Milk, snack, sesame seeds, lunch, WASA with laughing cow and 1 slice of ham and an orange, Dinner, Spinach, pork loin, peas and 1/4 pasta off of Gabi's plate. I also had a couple of clementines and 1/2 cup of sugar-free ice cream. I wish I wasn't me sometimes, thinking about food and what's next in my mouth. I have this fantasy that one day I will wake up and never have the desire to eat crap again. I wonder if this is what drug addicts feel like. If you would have asked me 20 years ago what my life would be like and what my body would be like, I can tell you this is not what I would have described. Weight 255 ugggg.

Great House needs work

Last week I went to the OBGYN and my doctor, who I like to refer to as the crotch whisperer, decide to give me a speech, it went something like this, If you were a house and I were a real estate agent your advertisement would say "good solid home, needs lots of work." Now what was I supposed to say to that. As the story goes, he does blood work and takes me off all meds. For the next 3 months he wants me on the GI diet and to take folic acid, calcium, fish oil and a daily vitamin. This should be fun!

To keep myself honest - I will log here, my weight and what I eat, if anything tastes good, I will post the receipt. I hope this is it folks... here goes nothing.

the battle

If you ever had to lose weight you know it's not easy. Well I feel officially defeated! This is nuts. I feel like crap, every day I feel my heart racing and then slow up. What is that about? So guess what, i guess today has to be the first day of the rest of my life AGAIN!

I weighed myself this morning and it's 253.5. I became that person, the person I stare at and say, "when the scale hit 200 wasn't that a sign?" or "when the scale hit 225 wasn't that a sign?" or even better "when the scale hit 250 wasn't that a sign?" I guess it's all relative. Looking and being judgmental is easy.

So here i sit at 7:16am knowing i have 39 days left until I go on a family beach vacation. If nothing else I here promise to: post every day and write something - how my day was, my mood, what I ate, I'll post the receipt with my critique, I'll be honest and confess if I exercised and how much. OK here goes nothing AGAIN!

Well - that didn't last long...

So I did one week of this all protein madness and that's exactly what it was MADNESS. I was sick and nasty to everyone for an entire week. but I did lose 8 lbs. not enough as far as I am concerned. Not for all the pain and suffering I went through.

I have since then begun to work out every day with my sister and got the bodybugg for Christmas. I was doing really well with everything until 2 nights a go when i twisted my ankle and now I can barley walk. Honestly, I think I might be doing this to my self subconsciously. Is it even possible that after 9 days of working out and using the Wii system like I'm part of the Olympic team That i hurt myself to the point of sabotage?? This is ridiculous. I also bought some WW books. I'm telling you I can not go one like this. I have got to lose wight, ankle or no ankle.

Ok I'm in pain, I'll post later. Peace.

Day 1 - Just woke up

I just woke up and started to think, can I do this, am I willing to do this, What am I doing - THIS IS CRAZY. It's only food people - why am I so terrified? I have got to get over myself. It's not the food I'm worried about, it's the failure. What if this doesn't work, what if i start this and can't lose any weight? WOW I may need mental therapist not only a dietitian. Until later...